Every time I pause writing to edit or publish or just survive life, I struggle when it comes time to start up again. It isn't that I don't love writing, I do. The flow of words, the creation of a world and people to populate it, the process delights and fascinates me, which is the whole reason I write. But, the process sometimes requires a grunt phase.
As I enter into the grunt phase right now, I have hit the "Am I writing the right novel?" question. Between the next Novel of Rhynan, Faith, and an old almost finished epic novel, Living Sacrifice, I am torn as to which to write/finish first. While I feel the pressure of wanting to get past the halfway mark in the Novels of Rhynan series, I am also feeling very burdened to finish Zezilia and Hadrian's story so I can get it "out the door" sooner. I feel like the Living Sacrifice story is intended for someone and I need to finish it and publish it so that person can read it.
So, I am planning on working on both. We shall see which pulls ahead first. Either way, I need to press on through the grunt phase where the words come awkwardly and the story comes in bits and frayed pieces that require more finagling than usual to get them to fit together smoothly. I will let you know how it goes. :)